November 30, 2010

Struggling with the weight of them....

  When we came home from Vietnam with our daughter I had so many memories.  And they were of faces.... faces of children left in the orphanage when we left.  This orphanage was not super nice or super large and supplys were a constantly in short supply at times.  But as we visited our daughter and saw the other children she had grown up with for 2 years are hearts were burdened.  The director took me around to meet all of the children and encouraged me to hold them and encouraged me to not give one more attention then the others.  The all needed so much.  This woman was wise in so many ways.  She knew the heart of adoptive parents... she knew we would remember.  And feel the weight of those little faces looking at us as we went about our time at home with our new daughter.  


   There were three families with us at travel time. When we returned home all three of us, (unknown to each other at the time) began advocating with our agency for two children. Older kids a brother and sister with special needs and ones several familes had turned down.  We were all quite the pain to our agency. We went to great extremes and all of us even contacted our social worker in Vietnam as well. (Giving her ideas on families she could contact who were interested in these kids).... It was through our social worker in Vietnam that we found out each of us was working to find families for these children.  I guess our three families were quite the pain in the neck... but the agency found families.  The little sister had her heart surgery and she graduates from High school this year and she is a great beauty. The older brother has a family who will always be behind him and support him.  


    God is still up to  His business of laying the burden for those left behind little faces on adoptive mommies hearts....

Check out Stacey's heart here...   http://mycupoverfloweth.blogspot.com/2010/11/struggling.html

STRUGGLING

Today I struggle...honestly, everyday I struggle...I struggle with the knowledge that there is a beautiful little boy who is waiting in China for his forever family.  I struggle with the knowledge that his best friend is home with his new family and his last 2 best friends have families paperchasing for them.  I struggle with the fact "our" sweet, beautiful, precious, CREATED IN GOD'S IMAGE, wonderful Dalton still doesn't have his forever family.  I struggle with all of the new pictures we receive of Solomon's buddies and I'm excited to know that 2 of the 3 that are left have their families but before we know it, those pictures will only have Dalton in them...no Solomon, no Kaden, no Parker, only Dalton... I struggle with the images of this sweet one begging me for a mommy...with the images of him watching us leave the orphanage with his best buddy...with the images of him standing there so confused and sad...

Oh, how I wish it was us...I wish we could adopt him. Believe me, there have been many tears shed but God has CLEARLY, soooo sooooo CLEARLY told us 'NO'.  I still don't understand why He's told us no but I trust His perfect plans and I trust that He knows exactly where Dalton's family is.  I wonder...are they listening...do they hear God's calling...are they afraid...will they be bold and brave enough to trust God's calling of stepping out in total trust and faith....where are they...who are they...  BUT in all my wondering, God knows...He knows the answers to all of those questions and I have peace knowing He loves Dalton so much more then I ever could and that He has him in the palm of His hands!!


So I ask again, please....please...I'm begging you...continue to PRAY for him...continue to spread the word...feel free to share my blog posts about him...it works...it really does...that is how Parker found his family...it was by all of you spreading the word!!
my email address: wearechinabound@gmail.com

4 comments:

*Overflowing* said...

Sweet, beautiful Dawn...thank you so much for sharing about Dalton. Thank you, thank you, thank you!!!

Aus said...

Oh we so understand - you just keep advocating - and posting your comics!! ;)

hugs - aus and co.

TanyaLea said...

Is this Dalton in the photos? He is SOOOOOOOO precious! Thank you for advocating for 'the least of these' ...I have seen several children find their forever families this way!

God bless you and your beautiful heart! <><

Dawn said...

Yes, TanyaLea this is Dalton. And he now has a family! Isn't he sooo cute. What a smile!